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There was no getting past it.

但却是无法回避的。

It was hopelessly and offensively nonconformist.

这些不皈依国教的乡下佬简直无可救药,令人反感。

Clifford left them alone, and she learnt to do the same: she just went by without looking at them, and they stared as if she were a walking wax figure. When he had to deal with them, Clifford was rather haughty and contemptuous; one could no longer afford to be friendly. In fact he was altogether rather supercilious and contemptuous of anyone not in his own class. He stood his ground, without any attempt at conciliation. And he was neither liked nor disliked by the people: he was just part of things, like the pit-bank and Wragby itself.

克利福德从不搭理他们,康妮也学着依样照做:每次擦身而过,总是目不斜视,而村民们则不约而同地盯着她看,仿佛在凝视一座会走路的蜡像。当不得不跟他们打交道时,克利福德总是摆出傲慢骄横的神态,给这些家伙好脸色并不是明智的选择。事实上,他对于所有非其阶层的人们,都保持着这种不屑一顾的高傲态度。他固守着自己的阵地,没有任何修好的意图。村民们对克利福德无甚好感,但也并不讨厌:他不过是生活的组成部分,跟矿坑和格拉比府没什么两样。

But Clifford was really extremely shy and self-conscious now he was lamed. He hated seeing anyone except just the personal servants. For he had to sit in a wheeled chair or a sort of bath-chair. Nevertheless he was just as carefully dressed as ever, by his expensive tailors, and he wore the careful Bond Street neckties just as before, and from the top he looked just as smart and impressive as ever. He had never been one of the modern ladylike young men: rather bucolic even, with his ruddy face and broad shoulders. But his very quiet, hesitating voice, and his eyes, at the same time bold and frightened, assured and uncertain, revealed his nature. His manner was often offensively supercilious, and then again modest and self-effacing, almost tremulous.

然而自从意识到自己再也无法行走,克利福德就变得极端怯懦。除了自家的仆从,他不愿见到任何其他的人。因为残废的他只能坐在轮椅或者巴斯椅上。然而,他仍会像以往一样,穿着高级裁缝为他量身剪裁的高档服装,系着邦德街买回的精致领带,若仅看上半身,他依旧风流倜傥,气度非凡。克利福德本就没有时下青年的那副娘娘腔,红润的脸庞,外加宽厚的肩膀,让他看起来倒有几分牧民的气质。但他那细微迟疑的声音,兼具果敢与畏缩、自信与不安的眼神,则透露出他的本性。他的举止有时傲慢得让人难以忍受,有时却谨慎谦恭到怯懦战栗的地步。

Connie and he were attached to one another, in the aloof modern way. He was much too hurt in himself, the great shock of his maiming, to be easy and flippant. He was a hurt thing. And as such Connie stuck to him passionately.

康妮和他彼此依恋,又相互疏远,这可是时下夫妻间最盛行的相处之道。因伤致残对克利福德的打击过重,使其心灵倍受煎熬,再也无法像过去那般轻松释然。可怜的他身心俱伤。而康妮则对他情根深种,不离不弃。

But she could not help feeling how little connexion he really had with people. The miners were, in a sense, his own men; but he saw them as objects rather than men, parts of the pit rather than parts of life, crude raw phenomena rather than human beings along with him. He was in some way afraid of them, he could not bear to have them look at him now he was lame. And their queer, crude life seemed as unnatural as that of hedgehogs.

但她还是不禁觉得丈夫与他人缺乏沟通。矿工们可以说都是他的仆从,但他始终把他们当作没有生命的物体、而非活生生的人来看待,当他们是矿场而非生活的组成部分,是粗鄙天然事物,而非和自己一般无二的人类。克利福德甚至有些惧怕他们,受不了让他们看到自己如今这副残缺不全的模样。而他们过着古怪粗劣的生活,简直跟反常的刺猬没什么两样。

He was remotely interested; but like a man looking down a microscope, or up a telescope. He was not in touch. He was not in actual touch with anybody, save, traditionally, with Wragby, and, through the close bond of family defence, with Emma. Beyond this nothing really touched him. Connie felt that she herself didn't really, not really touch him; perhaps there was nothing to get at ultimately; just a negation of human contact.

他远远地关注着他们的行为举动,像是通过显微镜或者望远镜去观察事物一样。但却跟他们没有半点往来。除了跟拉格比府的传统纽带、以及和艾玛的血亲关系,他几乎与其他任何人都没有实质性的接触。除此之外,没有什么能真正触及他的内心。康妮觉得连自己也无法真正确实地拨动丈夫的心弦,或许根本没有什么能做到这一点,克利福德的存在恰恰是对人际交往的某种否定。